07 June 2007 @ 05:39 pm
Language of rainbows  

This is the post that stays on top for ever and all eternity because I said so. Coding for this journal is done by me unless I say otherwise. All credits for icons, graphics or wordly venom can be found through the pot of gold, at my website. Any other information about me or this journal should be in my user info, take a look and email if it's not.
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25 paths | The directions we take
 
25 July 2006 @ 01:20 am
The year of the great stink.  
New icons.  Thirteen in total. None of them are even worth posting, but I said I would update and so here I go. 

09 Random Models 
04 Yeah Yeah Yeahs


Teasers
 

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Place: Hard wooden chair.
Mood of the moment: Exhastion tops anger, always.
Tunes of the moment: Weezer
 
4 paths | The directions we take
 
Amber Marion
15 July 2006 @ 12:52 am
This is a dead journal  

Wow. I must have at least crossed the record for worst live journal keeper ever. Do I get a medal or something, or just a slap on the back of the head? Anything you do I probably deserve. I'm so sorry for letting this go to waste. I really don't understand anything about live journal so it's hard for me to find the motivation to work on it, when I could create five brand new websites instead. From now on I will try to make an effort to keep this maintained, but I won't make any promises. 

Well, obviously there is a new layout. I kind of sort of made it myself... but not really because I used codes from [info]absonant as a guide. Thanks again Noc! You save my life when it comes to live journal. 

Hmm... what has changed since my last entry? A considerable amount actually. I just bought a new bedroom set for my room... to make it a little more "home" like. It was getting really irritating living like I was about to pack up and leave at any given moment, so I took some of the money from my father's benefits and went to ikea. I had such a good time and it looks so pretty now. Here, I have pictures: 

Sorry, I know they are too sharp and funny looking. My Uncle has an awesome camera, but the lighting in my room totally bites and I don't know how to work the flash, so I had to screw with the lighting and colors in photoshop, and viola, that's what you get. 

Gosh... lately I've been the most unpleasant person ever. I'm not sure if it's wicked pms or the fact that I'm living with two 11 year old boys, one of which is actually 36. Between the two of them, I want to hurt someone. Seriously, I can't even begin to explain how frustrating it is. My Uncle's son (I guess that would be my cousin :P) came down from Ohio for the summer, and since he came everything has changed. My Uncle has this big parent feeling about him, which is fine until the little boy takes advantage of it. My Uncle and I have this teasing thing going on, where we're constantly bothering eachother over something, and now that my cousin's here it's turned into one big Bash-Amber feast. It's really annoying because I don't want to tease the little kid and I can't tease my Uncle. He is too big and scary and anything I do or say to him he dishes out twice as hard. It's fine from just one untouchable person, but two untouchable children are extremely nerve racking. 

Anyways... I have to get up early and go to the zoo with my cousin, another young cousin, and my grandparents. Even the firey depths of hell seem more appealing than that situation. It will be awful... just wait.


 
 
Place: At my new desk
Mood of the moment: Get me a sign that says bitch'
Tunes of the moment: The All American Rejects
 
5 paths | The directions we take
 
07 June 2006 @ 07:02 pm
Ah...  

There isn't a better way to procrastinate than to type meaningless posts into my journal, haha. I am so bored right now. The absolute last thing I want to do is school work so I'm just going to make up something to talk about. I probably should do school though, because it's the end of the year for everybody else but me. I hate being the last one to finish but I'm so completely not motivated that it's difficult to even begin. 

It doesn't help that I've been so tired lately. I'm on a medication to prevent my migraines but it makes me so sleepy that I can't do anything. I'm completely useless when I'm tired. I tried to take myself off of them because I'm so sick of always needing to sleep. Even if I sleep for 15 hours straight I'm still exhausted. It really bites. When I began cutting them off though, I got this huge 7 day migraine that I'm only now getting the back end of. And I'm equally as useless when I have a migraine as I am when I'm tired. I don't know what to do about it though, because at the end of this month I lose my residency in Alberta and I won't be covered by my Mom's medical plan. 

Migraines are such a problem. The pills that I'm supposed take when I actually get a migraine are running really low, and they don't work the way they used to. It takes two pills to even dent the pain, whereas the first few times I took them it eased the pain on just one. I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'll probably order more before the month's end, but as for what I'm going to do after that I don't know. There is nothing physically wrong with me; at least nothing that a CAT scan and neurologist could find. I'll have to figure something out... oy.

Anyways... something other than migraines. My birthday!!! I'm finally 16. These last few months have gone by SO slowly because I was anticipating my birthday. I can finally get a job and a car and my license. Today is kind of boring though. I was looking forward to it for so long but there isn't really anything great about it. My Uncle woke up with the flu today so we can't go out to eat or anything... and I don't have a cake to pig out on. That's my favorite part about my birthday usually; the cake. My mom would always go to Dairy Queen and get me and ice cream cake with a picture of something green, haha. 

It's weird not being at home for my birthday. I've never spent a birthday without my mom. She's always out done herself on birthdays. She really knows how to make someone feel special, and I love her for that. It's not a big deal though... I made my bed and now I need to sleep in it. Once my Uncle is feeling better I'm going to drag him and my grandparents out for dinner... and CAKE! 

Well I'll be off because I have like a hundred emails to reply to, haha. Thank you everyone for the warm birthday wishes. I really, truly love you guys.

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Place: Near the pot o'gold
Tunes of the moment: 3 Doors Down
 
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Amber Marion
26 May 2006 @ 05:25 pm
Nothing seems right anymore...  
Ugh. I just feel ugh suddenly. I just wrote my English final exam. I was totally looking forward to finishing English for the year but now that I have I kind of regret it. I'm glad it's over with, but I wish I spent more time on it and put forth more effort. English is such an important subject to me and I've always taken pride in doing well in it, but my final was a disaster. It's all over now though. At least next year I will work my ass off and succeed. 

Yeah, I still feel ugh. I'm loosing everything. The affects of this move to Texas are finally hitting me. It's probably just because I'm emotionally unstable right now but suddenly I just regret everything. Not to the point of moving back, but just enough to make me unhappy and depressed. I feel like I'm loosing my family and it hurts because I know it's my fault. The people I wasn’t counting on missing are just out of nowhere clouding my mind. I guess it’s because everything is official now. Yesterday, I finalized my American citizenship and I am now officially a Texan. Haha, I’m in the system now. 

Yesterday was the end of the two year battle after my father’s death to get my duel citizenship and social security benefits approved and over with. It’s a great feeling, but it just put things in perspective for me. Ugh, I’m taking this so seriously and blowing it out of proportion. It just feels like a big deal because it’s official, and it means that my dad actually died two years ago in order for me to get here. Whoa, that didn’t sound right. He didn’t die SO I could get what I have, but as a result of his death I’m being handed a silver platter full of advantages and things that I know I’m going to take advantage of. I don’t want to though, because that means he is truly gone. 

Compensation for my dad’s problems means that I get to sail through life ahead of most people. I’m so selfish to be complaining about it, I know. It just kills me to be excited about all of this because of what lead to it. Can I really put a positive spin on something so terrible? Oh, my dad died so now I get a bunch of money and I’m going to buy a car and go shopping. Also, I have what millions of people wish their children could have; I have dual citizenship with Canadaand the United States so I can live the best of both worlds. Gee, that makes my dad’s death so much more rewarding. Fuck. Damn my pessimism and ability to make everything good sound bad. There is nothing good about loosing a father, but why do I always catch myself being excited about where I am and what I have only because he died? Arg, I’m so annoyed with myself right now and with everything.

I probably shouldn’t have written this in such a public place, but I really need to let it out. I’m so stressed out over the simplest and smallest things and I am doing it to myself. I can’t find a way out. Everything is getting to me and I don’t know what to do about. I am crying and… I’m not sure about anything. I have not motivation to do school or make artwork. Oh, and that’s another thing that depresses me. I haven’t been able to make anything in photo shop. I just stare at a blank canvas wishing something would hit me, but nothing does. I hate the fact that the thing I used to look forward to everyday is now something I have to force myself to do. What changed? I want it back.
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Mood of the moment: It's hopeless
Tunes of the moment: Yellow Card
 
2 paths | The directions we take
 
19 May 2006 @ 07:20 pm
Lazy lazy lazy, and tired  
I haven't gotten a thing done today. Half the day is a blur, seriously. I've been getting more migraines recently, since I began drinking coffee again, so today I decided to stop drinking coffee and as a result I'm bloody exhausted. It's impossible to write about the Canadian government when I'm don't have the energy to fight the boredom. I wrote the same sentence twice; let that describe to you just how tired I am. It sucks because I'm finally over the half way point in school and I only have less than a month left before I' m all done. The problem is, I turn 16 in 19 days and I have a job lined up for the day of my birthday. I wanted to be done this year before I started working but at this rate I don't think its going to happen. It's a really good job though, so I can't turn it down. I won't be able to get any time off though. It's 35 hours a week, for five days a week. It's going to be really tough to balance my exams and such at the end of next month. Arg, stressing about it makes my head hurt. 

And I have the second half of my English exam on Monday. The one I had to repeat and then reschedule twice. It's a pain in the ass. At least once it's over I won't have to deal with any of it again. Oh crap. I keep forgetting about all the paper work I need to do for CTS and WE. Damnit. 

Okay, well I guess I'm going to make this quick then. I have eleven new icons to add. All Josh Groban; all incredibly mediocre. 

11 JOSH GROBAN ICONS

Teasers: 
1.  10.

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Place: The green stripe
Tunes of the moment: Taking Back Sunday - New American Classic
 
The directions we take
 
11 May 2006 @ 10:37 pm
This is where the party is  
More icons. I was browsing the internet procrastinating as usual and I found two of the most talented people I have ever seen, so I was inspired to make icons. Of course only one out of eleven actually turned out how I wanted it, but oh well. All Josh this time, which makes me happy. It's always fun to stare at pictures of attractive men while making things... sigh.  

10 JOSH GROBAN ICONS

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4 5










I want to make a new layout, a wider one. I hate how narrow this one is, it really needs to be wider. I'll work on something hopefully, or just screw the idea of a header and make one that is imageless. I like the navigation though. That was really the highlight of making my own coding. It took FOREVER to do it. And it came down to being screwed up for something as small as an extra letter in the links. Can you believe that. By the end of making it I was ready to strangle someone. I was so pissed I picked up my mouse and slammed it down. Then I figured "well jesus, if I can't have it how I want it then I'll at least change the links." So I changed the link to my website (that was all I knew how to do at the time) and refreshed the page and it worked. Talk about a waste of perfectly good built up anger. 

Anyways, I'm going to go and reread my essay that I spent the last three days reading, and hopefully submit it if it's any good. I always need to take a step away from my writing before I can find the flaws... it's really annoying.
 
 
Place: Sitting on my sleeping foot.
Tunes of the moment: Staind - Safe Place
 
2 paths | The directions we take
 
07 May 2006 @ 11:19 pm
"Your spotless instincts are valid"  
May 8th Edit: Happy Birthday to [info]miss_tesco. (Laylaface)

My obsession has exploded. I'm contemplating ordering fangirl crap off of the internet. Taking Back Sunday has consumed me. I love the music. I think the biggest thing drawing me to them is their lack of emo presence. I hate how casual it is becoming for new bands to work their way into the mainstream via black eyeliner and songs of suicide. It's tragic, really. Perhaps it goes way back to the days where rebellion became the "it" thing to do. Taking Back Sunday, thus far has shown no signs of this rare commonality. They are just a lie-low band. Unless of course I'm getting ahead of myself and I'm of this opinion because I have no sources into the "new" music. Maybe they are a pass tense of popularity, which gives me the impression that they never were. Whatever the case, I love them. Even if they are the "oh so sad" type, I'll still listen to them regardless. I'll tolerated because they are just so damn good. Seriously, Rock two thousand and six, watch out.

Josh Groban really needs to hurry up on his new album. I've had so many people tell me that they "haven't heard of him" and it kills me a little. He is the definition of perfection in a male vocalist, possibly even the entire gender. I wish he would put out some new photos too. I've been using the same ones for three bloody years. I'm running out of things to do with them. Oh well, I still love him. For the record, (not that anyone cares) Taking Back Sunday has not overthrown Josh Groban. He is still my one true love, ermm, and he'll realize that he loves me too... you just wait. Uhuh.

Anyways, I'll get to the point of this entry. I have made twelve new icons. Twelve horrid new icons. Pink is taking over me. I hate the color on a norm, but it looks so cool on black and white pictures. It's a must-use.

5 JOSH GROBAN AND 7 TAKING BACK SUNDAY ICONS

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Place: Over the rainbow
Tunes of the moment: KT Tunstall - Black Horse and a Cherry Tree
 
10 paths | The directions we take
 
06 May 2006 @ 11:52 pm
WHYYYYYYY?!  
Edit: [info]havens made my life suddenly make sense again. Thank you Rosanna! <3333 (mwaha, I win)

OH MY DEAR JESUS. Why must livejournal be so freaking complicated? I HATE these freaking restrictions. I would pay for a goddamn paid account if didn't HATE LIVEJOURNAL so much. All I want to do is change the bloody text of the navigation links, but NOOOO. Every bloody tutorial takes you to the same useless page. It's like What layout are you using? Flexible Squares. What do you want to do with it? Change the navigation links. What layout are you using? FLEXIBLE FREAKING SQUARES! What do you want to do with it? OH MY DEAR SWEET LORD.

Yes, livejournal is great if you're not used to the freedom of html, which I AM, so every friggin thing that it doesn't want me to do makes me want to assassinate the person behind this nonsense. I am so angry. And I'm hungry. It's midnight and I still haven't eaten dinner. I'm going to go do that before the combination of hunger and anger devise a plan to take over the world. ARGGGGG.

New layout credits go to 44 Suburbia, 37 Pence, and Tre Texture.
 
 
Mood of the moment: Not so Angry anymore...
 
8 paths | The directions we take
 
06 May 2006 @ 12:42 am
Music takes the cake  
In the last week I have been listening to so many new artists. It seems as if everything I listen to, I love. It's odd really, and considerably time consuming. When I listen to music I can't just listen to each song once; I like to know what all the words are and generally the theme of the song. Try doing that for like 15 new artists, multiplied by an average of two albums each. Haha, and then try to focus on Canadian history. A very tricky task which I have yet to complete sucessfully.


My Uncle and his friends are really clever people, you see. In 2004, my Uncle's truck was broken into and he lost over 500 CDs. Since then, his friends devised this genius plan to upload every CD they own, and gather the CD's of others, onto a portable harddrive. They each have one, and these harddrives have well over 1500 artists, and multiple albums for each. It's crazy. And then, my nutty Uncle downloads like two full albums a day; it's a disease. Seriously, lots of music. I'm going to upload some of my favorite songs soon, just because I want to share some of these bands with the world. For instance, my flavor of the moment is Taking Back Sunday. They have an amazing sound, best described as a mixture of Alexisonfire and Fall Out Boy. I know, two bands that are completely different and extremely talented, but Taking Back Sunday really pulls if off. If it wasn't so late I would upload them now but I'm rushing this entry so I can go to bed before 3:00.

Gah, I feel like I'm not making any sense. Online journals feel so impersonal. I feel like I am talking to myself but there are going to be people reading this. That's an uncomfortable thought. I'm still not sure if I like livejournal as much as I should. I've been trying to code my own layout for the last 24 hours and it's impossible. I can't preview anything unless I take the coding of the journal and upload it to my website. I hate doing that though, because it doesn't totally work. Each page for some odd reason has different qualifications. Like for instance, my navigation on the recent entries page works perfectly, but when I try to view it on an uploaded copy of the friends page, it looks totally funky. There are so many restrictions on livejournal. I don't like not being free to position something how I want. It's rather annoying. I have this idea of a layout in my head and I'm unable to work with it because livejournal doesn't want to. Stupid.

Maybe I'll close it an just use my website. It's so annoying when people are friends only though, because not everyone has a website and I like to know whats going on with my friends. LIVEJOURNAL BE MORE USER FRIENDLY. HMPH.

Okay, ten new icons and then I have to go.

10 TAKING BACK SUNDAY
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Place: Lala land
Tunes of the moment: Yeah yeah yeahs - Warrior
 
1 path | The directions we take
 
22 April 2006 @ 09:57 pm
Procrastination is a beast  
I'm so horrible. I was supposed to get a bunch of school work done today but I haven't touched any of it. I've spent the entire day trying to get whenitcomes back up, and in between doing that and resting my eyes, I sat on the couch and watched my Uncle play Halo. I could have been more productive and taken my school work onto the couch with me, but no; I procrastinated until it was too late. It's not too late yet... but there's a few more things on my list of "totally unimportant things to do" that I'm probably going to get done. See, it's a beast!



I did manage to finish up the thing that will probably ruin any chance of me getting my life together though, so that's a good thing... I think.

I have four more icons to add too, none of which are very good but still, they pass the time away.

Josh Groban:



Okay, that's all for now. Thank you everyone for the comments and the friendymcthingers!
 
9 paths | The directions we take
 
19 April 2006 @ 12:38 am
And It's Launched  
Firstly, I want to get down on my knees and thank the almighty and glorious Nocturne ([info]aery) for all the help she has both directly and indirectly given me. I cannot begin to tell how much I disliked livejournal before she turned the jargon into plain english and filled me with information that I would have never known without her. Thank you, Noc, in the most expressive and sincere way. 

Some may have noticed that I took whenitcomes down for a little while, just until I can get my crap together and a new layout up. It won't be long because that website provides me with an oxygen above oxygen, and neglecting it really bothers me. I promise I'll get it back up soon, but until then, I'll use this journal for whatever communication that I require. I don't know how to do that "friends only" thing, and I doubt with great certainty that I'll ever want to even when I do learn, so don't worry if you don't have a live journal.

Now, let's see if I can do this Mcicon thinger. I made ten new ones. That's a whopper for me, Ms. Josh Groban Icons Only, until now. That's right; I have expanded my geekdom onto Josh Groban's girlfriend, January Jones. 

4 Josh Groban
6 January Jones

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13 paths | The directions we take